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A very uninteresting picture of the medic.

Wed, 22 May 2013 16:51:45 +0100

A very uninteresting picture of the medic.

Bringing back a little comic thing I enjoyed doing. It’s...

Tue, 21 May 2013 00:31:03 +0100

Bringing back a little comic thing I enjoyed doing. It’s called Finding Sanity. It just involves me and my dog Harry and sometimes Dr. Huron. The mad scientist who lives next. Notice his madness by the ferret sewn on his arm. Not original but I always had fun drawing them. Something relaxing about it.

I can’t draw. I’ve tried producing something of...

Sun, 19 May 2013 13:11:37 +0100

I can’t draw. I’ve tried producing something of worth for awhile now but nothing looks good enough. So I’m just going to bite the bullet and show you this. The semi-decent thing I’ve been working on. I say semi-decent because the anatomy is god damn awful.

Anyway something for something that wont get made. You know the drill.

These are two characters I designed for a contest that never...

Sat, 04 May 2013 16:39:38 +0100

These are two characters I designed for a contest that never happened in the end. They are called Bobert (the orange one) and Terry (the not orange one). I used to really like drawings them. I have a sketch book pretty much filled with these two. My favourite way to draw them was in cute poses like this.

I have a bad habit of starting drawings and not finishing them....

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 02:13:28 +0100

I have a bad habit of starting drawings and not finishing them. I plan to finish it but juuuust in case have this.

(Heads up, this is probably going to be a bit corny. I’m in one of those rare moods where I...

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 23:01:00 +0100

(Heads up, this is probably going to be a bit corny. I’m in one of those rare moods where I attempt to write my feelings. I’m not a literary genius but hey here goes nothings.)

Have you ever just watched, listened or read something and just felt this overwhelming sense of wanting? Wanting to be apart of something out right inspiring. Even if what you worked on was only scratching the surface of what inspired you you’d just know you’d get get sense of achievement from being part of this bigger work.

I get this a lot. It always starts off in my chest. An example of this feeling, and the most recent, is watching Double Fines documentary for Broken Age. So far every episode has left me wanting. I always have a need to get out a sketch pad and just draw as much as I can. When I’m done I close my book, feel happy I did something and just get this sense of hope. I come back the next day after some rest and I’m back a square one. No. These are not good enough and you will not get a job.

It’s so easy to get back in that rut. All my work just doesn’t seem up to standard. Whatever I’ve done is not enough. More. I need more. It wont ever stop because the reality drips in. I will never work at a place like Double Fine. You see the artists. So confident. So talented. So many pictures! So many character designs that make every character I design look like a pile.

People will say “You’ll get better with time!” and hey that’s true. I know it is. If I have a simple wonder through my DeviantArt account I can see that. Still I don’t think this cycle will ever be broken. I can’t just say “I’ve achieved industry standard!” because I haven’t. And as far as I’m concerned I never will. Even if I trick someone into giving me a job I still wont feel I’m good enough. I can’t fully explain why. Perhaps I should stop comparing myself to Colin Fix or Scott C.

Still despite these thoughts I don’t think I could give up. Even when the pictures inspired by these moments of wanting now seem shit to me. The initial inspiration is still there in the back of my mind screaming. Keep going. Perhaps a tiny part of me still believes I can do it after all. I rest my mind. Play a video game or something. I dive back in. Thinking back to the stirring words that made me feel that hope in the first place.

“You don’t know what seeds will turn into rad stuff man. Maybe those seeds will grow into amazing things and then we’ll realise that those amazing things are terrible. Then we cover them up with a sheet and move onto the next thing.”

-Scott C. talking about designing for “Broken Age”

So for now I’ll keep drawing. Flicking through my sketchbooks. Look where I went wrong and try again. Continually looking forward to that next big thing that gets my mind in a creative spin.

Welp I somehow managed to snag 100 followers. The fact that I...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 15:58:16 +0100

Welp I somehow managed to snag 100 followers. The fact that I don’t post often and hardly reblog stuff means this is god damn miracle. Now let’s all sit down and get in the party pose.

Erg it’s late and my eyes hurt but here it is. I’m...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 04:39:06 +0100

Erg it’s late and my eyes hurt but here it is. I’m gunna chill out now.

The trophy is made of gold and chocolate.

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 17:05:52 +0100

The trophy is made of gold and chocolate.

Doing requests again...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 16:55:47 +0100

Send some requests, same as last time. Feeling very uncreative and I’m hoping some suggestions will perk my brain up.

Not really happy with this picture but I don’t post enough...

Mon, 01 Apr 2013 00:45:27 +0100

Not really happy with this picture but I don’t post enough so here ya go.

Fanart of Double Fines new game Broken Age. Looking forward to seeing the results of this one.

Hambo wants to give Simon a kiss.

Sat, 23 Mar 2013 21:28:08 +0000

Hambo wants to give Simon a kiss.

I miss you!!! PLEASE COME BACK! You know, when you have time. ; m ;

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 15:15:03 +0000

I’m sorry, my art postings are a bit sparse. I get distracted with uni work and I just lose track. I’ll always be there though… in your soul. :)

Off he goes into the big world.

Sun, 03 Mar 2013 17:01:12 +0000

Off he goes into the big world.

Let’s boogie.

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 23:58:47 +0000

Let’s boogie.

More uni sketches. Check it out here if your interested what...

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 01:16:25 +0000

More uni sketches. Check it out here if your interested what it’s all about.

An idea for something that will never become a thing due to so...

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 23:00:00 +0000

An idea for something that will never become a thing due to so many reasons. One being it’s not greatly original but damn I love drawing that dog in a little suit.

Still most of this is just portfolio work to contrast the softer simpler characters. These, especially the dog, are a lot more structured. Also more colourfull and I sure do love colours.

Here are all the requests I got! The previous post is now gunna...

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 01:28:00 +0000

I'll help you find your dog!

Happy singing Twilight

It's what he does.

Here are all the requests I got! The previous post is now gunna be deleted as I’ll be taking no more. This has been fun! I enjoyed doing something creepy again especially, it’s something that is usually reserved to my doodle books these days.

Also just a heads up I’ve not been drawing ponies for awhile because I’ve kind of lost interest in the show somewhat. I by no means hate the show, just the latest episodes didn’t pull me in as much and I faded in interest. Still you requested it and I drew it! Enjoy!

Pup is a young seal who doesn’t seem to like the cold...

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 21:16:17 +0000

Pup is a young seal who doesn’t seem to like the cold weather. His family have began to make their move further out to sea but for some reason Pup just can’t seem to follow them.

Awesome work :D

Sun, 30 Dec 2012 02:33:53 +0000

Aw shucks, I don’t get many random tumblr compliments. Even though you’re a person I know in the real world it’s still nice. Cheers!